Socially Distanced Diaries

Days under quarantine: 31. Wow.  Lunch: leftover dumpling soup. I've also taken to drinking coffee again, mostly the instant stuff sometimes as many as two packets a day.  Dinner: Patty melt. Good and easy but also sad because now I've finished the jar of cornichons.  Mood: meh. Not interested in anything recently, including thesis and GA work. Not sure how to keep myself motivated, most of the time all I'm feeling is a looming sense of dread that this is all going to shit. Got a batch of film back, kinda depressing to look at past travels and gatherings. I hate myself so much these days.  P.s. not even doing my skincare routine these days even though I just replenished a bunch of things that are running out. I can't stick to anything. 

Days since quarantine: 22 Lunch: more xôi khúc. I'm finally getting very tired of eating this but D. told me it was his favourite thing I made last week.  Dinner: noodle salad with roasted salmon. Originally conceived as lettuce wraps before D. pointed out out to me that such a handsy method of food consumption might not be the best idea in this moment. Blueberry crumb cake that I overbaked for dessert. We broke quarantine and went over to D.'s parents for dinner. I made food and we ate with the sun shining on us almost the entire time.  Mood: good. I think D.'s mood is also better today, as it often is after we are done at his parents. With three weeks (!) of social isolation behind us, it was really nice to have some contact with other people. I know it wasn't the best thing to do, but it was almost necessary, in a way. D. was in a bad mood almost all last week and I was just feeling adrift. We anchor ourselves in the presence of others, even hardcore loners like us, ...

Days since quarantine: 20 Lunch: lentil chili soupy thing.  Dinner: brown butter couscous with spring vegetable stew. Low effort but high impact – fresh and comforting at the same time.  Mood: indifferent. Did a few GA things, managed to renew my SketchUp subscription. Emailed people about the Andries Deinum thing, emailed Ned again. All in all a pretty insignificant day. It's hard for me to care much about anything right now. 

Days since quarantine: 19 Lunch: leftover braised egg and tofu. Had a bunch of snacks in between meals as well: seaweed, tea biscuits, chocopies. The snacking situation is completely out. Of. Control.  Dinner: chicken salad with Wheat Thins.  Mood: sleepy. Not sure why but I haven't been able to sleep very well at night lately, which has caused me to be very drowsy during the day. I feel like I'm always on the cusp of (and frequently am) falling asleep. I'm also getting a pretty terrible headache everyday now, in the morning especially. 

Days since quarantine: 18 First breakfast: a square of buttered cornbread Second breakfast: xôi khúc. Truly the gift that keeps on giving.  First lunch: peanut butter with banana and honey on toast.  Second lunch: a fried egg on toast.  Dinner: leftover meatloaf.  Mood: generally unproductive. Took a long nap and the only thing I did outside of my GA job was putting up thesis drawings on Conceptboard and emailed Barbara. It feels like it's been forever since I made any progress on thesis. I need to start moving forward somehow. Gah.  Cleaned out the dead plants, organized my desk and closet today. Now that I'm home more, it's nice to start taking care of my space again. Still back and forth on buying a printer/scanner to help the workflow at home. Now I just need to actually sit down and do some real work.